About 9 months ago, I started chatting with a guy on IM. And this was during a bad time of my and "Peter". We talked for about 3 months and decided to meet. Since he is in the service and lives 5 hours away, timing isn't always that easy. But we chose a date, he went on leave for Christmas and went home to his families house.
Everything seemed fine until a woman called my cell phone wondering who I was. And why am I calling him for. She said they were married (and she's a liar) then changed her story to they were getting married. The next day I called his cell again and he answered so of course I don't own him or anything but do deserve a explanation of why this woman is calling me during the night. He says to me "Well I didn't expect for anything to happen, but I met someone and I want to be with her.
So fine... I never since then have I talked to him.
About four days ago he calls my cell and leaves a message that he was sorry. That the woman who called me was someone he knew most of his life. He wouldn't be with her in that way. But when I called he was drunk and in a dead sleep and wasn't sure what he even told me.
But he was truly sorry and if I wanted to call him. He then proceeds to tell me that he has been looking for my number because I changed my home number that week. I don't want some crazy woman bothering me. And he deleted my cell number also because of her. He says for almost 6 months he figured out how to get old numbers to appear on his bill and thats how he got it. And again was sorry.
So I debated with this for two days. Should I should I not call him.
Well I'm a too kind of a person and wasn't going to be rude and called. I only said hello and he just kept talking and apologizing. I never said to him that I forgave him. But again I really had no ties to him in anyway since we only chatted.
He asked me the day after that if we could meet because he knows, I know what I want in my life as in love and I'm a strong and loving woman from the things that I have told him.
So I'm not too sure. I'm afraid that he will be there one day and gone the next. He says he would never do that.
Then I have "Peter" thing that I am dealing with. And he sorta knows about him but not the entire deal.
But my mind is on one spectrum from "Peter" and now a new one with this one.
For me I think if I meet him and I like him it will do a world of good for me to get "Peter" out without all the hurt and pain. I am not using this guy if I meet him for a rebound because I really deserve someone in my life and want that. I am just not sure about it because of the long distance. And so on.
I just hope I don't regret once again. I don't have time in my life for regret. But I don't want to lose out on an opportunity of meeting someone new either.
I still have yet had that one last time with "Peter" that should be this week. It really sucks to end something. It sucks to be treated bad and I was the one he wanted to be with and so on and now he's resorting to his old life. I'm tired of crying but can't help the tears. I so wish we all could have a time machine and to be able to start over and make better choices or know what choices are the best and all of us to be happy in life.
I just know that I am a really good person .. loving kind and sweet. And I seem to be stuck in misery.
Why???
So another chance? Who knows.
