You've taken my thoughts and love
You have given pain and tears
I lost time and my pride
You gained my all and my heart
I showed you all of this
You said that you did
Actions are more than words
You made me feel breathless and hopeful in the beginning
Now you make me feel hurt, sad and revengeful
You took everything away from me
And you want to keep everything the same from your past before me
While I am hopeless and alone
You want to be happy and content with the old life.
You should really do what you said you were going to do from the start, and not be a coward and leave me a broken heart.
You wonder why I want for her to know? Because I lost all and you should as well.

Sensuality ...
Arousing with desires
Sensuality...
Fulfilling any and all desires
Sensuality...
Erotic and Naughty
Sensuality...
Licking, sucking and biting
Sensuality...
Moaning and heavy breathing
Sensuality...
Sounds and feeling of wetness
Sensuality...
The tastes and smells
Sensuality...
Nasty conversations
Sensuality...
Being a Naughty dirty girl
Sensuality...
Hot wet nasty kisses of spit connecting ones lip to another
Sensuality...
Taking it anywhere and raw or with some hot saliva
Sensuality...
Feeling, holding, squeezing, sliding up and down his shaft
Sensuality...
Backwards, forwards, sideways, on your hands and knees
Sensuality...
Orgasm building... ecstasy
Sensuality...
Holding the feeling as long as possible
Sensuality...
Releasing orgasm ... moaning, words of pleasure, trembling and feeling wetness oozing
Sensuality...
Sexy, hot and delicious

Within the past year, I have been wanting a tattoo pretty bad.
I have finally decided what kind of tattoo I will be getting in the next few months or so. I would like this at the base of my back or high on the outside of my thigh.
That is of a Chinese Cherry Blossom...I haven't figured out a personal design.
The meaning of this Chinese Cherry Blossom...

For the Chinese the cherry blossom is a very significant symbol of power. Typically it represent a feminine beauty and sexuality and often holds an idea of power or feminine dominance. Within the language of herbs and herbal lore of the Chinese the cherry blossom is often the symbol of love.

This is who I am in my soul and aura.

Yesterday never end up happening so it's postponed till the week after next. Which is probably better for me to clear my head and really take the time to get together all my thoughts and anger to make sure he really grasps how I feel about him now and how he isn't god and everything should be his way and it's all about him.
Thank you for the comments on my last blog, it's truly appreciated. It's hard when your on your own and you can't discuss things with people that are in your life because they are judgmental and see things either clearly and truly think I'm an ass (which I don't deny at this point) and or don't understand and don't know the entire story to actually get it. OR everyone else has the good life and they're all goodie goodies and I signed my life to the devil. No one truly understands unless they lived it and no one can say what they would do or not do unless they lived it. Love, your heart, soul and mind can really be taken advantage of and lost emotionally in situations like mine and similar things I'm sure a lot of you have endured in your own lives.
You all have a good night... and thanks again!

Tomorrow is the last time
that we will go back and forth
of what really happened in our life together.
He will make it seem I'm in the wrong
and what I said and did is my fault.

He will try to convince me to stay
and be together as he rekindles his
sexual life for his wife.
And for this reason
Tomorrow is the last day
I will see his face
Tomorrow is the last day
I will hear his voice
Tomorrow is the last day
he will hear my anger and hurt
Tomorrow is the last day
he will see my face
He was a mistake
a regret
He wasted my time
He wasted my life
He wasted my love
He wasted my sensuality
But he will NEVER forget
my time
my life
my love
and my sensuality.
Tomorrow, is the last day for us.
Tomorrow he will realize that it may
have took almost 8 years, but he knows that
I know he was just a player whom stole my soul.
Tomorrow... brings a new day