Everyone is there own person
And you would think given you live your own life
You would expect life to be a certain way.
I have been through a lot in my life.
From happiness to sadness
People you love in your life
the next day gone forever...
To a place you always tell people they are better off when ill.
But yet it kills you inside you can never see them again.
And then your selfish and would want them here with you then to feel no pain and always at peace.
Your left alone and to cope and deal with things that they leave behind, a spouse, children and maybe even parents.
Then life is different and your in charge
then things happen.. life goes on.. the good or the bad
And you can't deal, you have no one to turn to that you trust
No one to know how you feel or there to be your strength and shoulder.
But for whatever comes my way... I feel I'm truly alone.
Scared, lonely at times feeling helpless.
Not knowing right from wrong it may seem but not in a childish way.
I don't know right from left
I can't seem to move on with what life gives me
I don't know what I did in a past life to deserve all the terrible in this one.
I know deep down, I sound selfish and may even be that. I know in the world there is more terrible things then what is in mine. But can never get over the life experiences of my own.
I don't want to be selfish...
Nor lonely and scared.
I want to be in control of who and what goes on in my life.
Lost is one word I would sum myself up as.
I want to be found and put on the right path.
